Title : My Helpless Butterfly
Author : Mars
Rating : Still PG-15 still safe. fluff.
Starring : Yamada Ryosuke. Kamenashi Kazuya. OCs and friends
Disclaimer : i own Ryosuke and Kazuya in my (lucid) dream
“I’m sorry for being selfish”
That’s all mayu said in his email. Yamada sighed as he stepped into his apartement. The only place to calm down. The members have rights to stay in an apartement or their parents house. Yamada chose to be here, so he didn’t make his family targets of the freaky fans of his. It’s a luxurios one for someone at his age. He threw himself and buried his face on the comfy sofa .
‘’this can’t be happening.. no” he murmured.
He couldn’t calm down. Instead, he builds projections of fears. What would happen if he really did that and that kid is his actual child. What about the media? His parents? His fans? And worst, what about hey! Say! JUMP? They would get the impact too. Hey say JUMP is known for their high spirits, their innocence. And all of the happy cheering. Not someone like he is right now.
“meet me tomorrow at the park”
He just typed the address, sent the email and sleep, he wished all of this was just a dream.
“eh honto? A day off?” kame smiled as soon as he heard the staff. “yes, apparently there is no job for you guys today, congrats” the five guys grinned. “yey!” junno shouted cheerfully. “yeah! Then who’s up for a drink!?” kame thrilled. “a—i’m so sorry I have to pass. I have to do something in my parents house” nakamaru said with guilt. “a- boku mo. I guess I can use this rare free time to train for mouse peace” ueda followed. “ah.. souka” kame sighed and turned to junno and koki. “o-ore wa—“
“ah hai hai, daijobou da yo. I’ll just go back home and rest” kame said.
“ho-honto ni gomennasai yo” junno said as kame walked away dissapointedly. He actually missed where they’ll go home together, and sometimes hang out even they didn’t like each other that time. When KAT-TUN were still six weird men. “I’m just a little boy huh” he tought, while he started the car engine and drove, remembering the ex-member and past memories.
He parked near a small convenience store.
Buying all the groceries on his own. “maybe I should marry na” kame laughed at himself, putting all things he wanted randomly into the cart, if jin was here he would make fun of him. He could hangout with his close friends or family now, but he just didn’t feel like it.
“u-wa” kame heard something fell. It was a pack of squids, near his feet. “kore” kame took it and stood, to find a charming girl standing in front of him. “go-gomen, I dropped it” she said. “ah” as soon as she talked, the voice turned into a familiar memories. “you’re the one who— yesterday”
“ah! I bumped onto you!? I’m sorry, sorry- I was in such hurry that time” mayumi arimura, bowed several times. “ah—iie, daijobou da yo. I just remembered” kame nods his head in awkwardness. “mama” a child voice called out. It’s the little chou, on the trolley calling for his mother. “eh who is that cute little kid? Your little brother?” kame hurriedly ran to him. “a—a chotto matte”
“konnichiwa” kame said, smiling to the little boy who’s sitting on the trolley seat. “mmu—mamaa” the boy insisted, he wants his mother.
“say konnichiwa to oji-san, come on” fuyu came and lifted him. “`konn-“ he stopped, staring with his big brown eyes. making kame litteraly squaled. “ni?” his mother helped. “ni—chii” he stopped again. “waaa” kame finished the unfinished greeting. “ah, gomen he just learned” fuyu said. “daijobou, you’re a smart boy!” kame messed chou’s few strands of hairs.
Kame looked at the two who’s standing in front of him, and realized that he’s not in disguise as usual. He usually wear many outfits. Like coats, scarf, hat and sunglasses so nobody would recognize him. But the girl in front of him didn’t really seem to notice. “ano, what’s his name?” he asked. “chou, just call him chou” fuyu said, putting her son back on the trolley. “oh, and what’s yours?”
“f-fuyumi arimura” she murmured.
“hai.. um” fuyu didn’t really know how to react. “you like squids?” fuyu fastly nodded. “a friend of mine used to buy it everytime we stopped on convenience store. It’s funny that I saw it again, without buying it” kame sighed, on the memories. The ex-member. “ah.. sou. Then, why don’t you buy it too? Ima”
“e-eh? But I’m going to get worse, nobody’s going to eat it” he said nervously. “why? Then.. why don’t you just make it in a bento for your friends? They’d love it, I’m sure” fuyu smiled sweetly. “eh..”
“oh, I have to go. Matta ne—“ fuyu looked at her watch and waved at kame. “w-wait, do you even know me or—something?” he asked before fuyu left. “e- of course. You’re johnnys aren’t you”
“eh, this girl are really clueless. Of course I am, but I think she didn’t even know which group I am in” kame tought. “y-yes” kame answered. “bye bye” kame waved back slowly as fuyu left.
“konnichiwa” mayu approached the guy in disguise. Wearing jackets, sunglasses, in the middle of a sunny day. In a local park. That must be him. “hey” yamada shifted, making a space for her and chou to sit. “I’m sorry, I’m late. I have to buy some things for dinner” mayu said. She took a seat nervously. “hey I’m a.. I’m sorry for yesterday” yamada said.
“it’s okay. I’m sorry too. I- I’m going to.. take what I said earlier. I’m sorry. I won’t ruin your life” the girl beside yamada smiled. “wh- what. No! how could you? I already made my mind. and I already line up what I’m going to say, I practiced while waiting” he nagged. “eh?”
“maybe I’m not sure yet about chounosuke. But I don’t want to be an irresponsible man. I’m a man and I have to be responsible for what I did. Even if it’s wrong but I have to face it. So I want to take responsibility of chou and you. So.. so…” he stopped, line of sweat fell on his forehead.
“so from now on don’t hesitate. Just, call me if you need someone to help you. Or anything you two need. Just please do” at last yamada finished his sentence. Even though it’s not what he’s been practicing about moment ago, but that’s the point. Mayu looks shocked enough. “yo- you’re okay with it? I could—I could have ruin your..”
“it’s your right to do so. I have to take full responsible for what I did”
“but.. but you’re not sure about chou.. what if he’s not your child?” mayu asked, just to make sure.
“maybe I’m not sure yet. But I believe you” he replied firmly.
“so.. so.. please email me everyday! Yoroshiku onegaishimasu! I have works to do. Shitsurei!” yamada patted chou’s head, quickly bowed and ran away before mayu could do anything. “that guy.. what’s wrong with him. Didn’t he yelled at me yesterday?” mayu sighed, feeling guilty.
the next day..
“oi kame~ where have you been. You’re late yo” koki greeted as kamenashi entered KAT-TUN’s room. The baseball guy smiled awkwardly. “hey hey hey~ I’m so sorry for yesterday.. I have to go to a friend’s house” junno said looking at kame’s flat expression. “eh, daijobu daijobu. Um. Are you guys.. um.. like.. hungry or something?” kame asked nervously. Gripping the plastic bag on his hand harder.
“eh? Nani?” ueda asked, turned along with his chair with manga on his hand. “i- I umm. I have some.. some.. foods if you, well.. if you didn’t want to.. it’s okay though” he hesitated. “nanda yo?” koki took the plastic bag from his hands. “eh no! i—uuuh!” but the others already opened it and find 3 boxes. “nani kore? Eh? Bento?” junno said excitedly. “waaah. Hontou da? You made it yourself?” maru took one of them and opened it. “u-uwaaa” he said looking at it. It may be not cute but that’s why they could figured that it was kame who made it. Rice with some squids on the side piled up tidily.
“squids” koki murmured and looked at kame. All 4 of them clicked the same memory. Memory of the ex-members and dozens of lunch they ate together. “i- i- I brought it randomly. I just tought, maybe you—you guys are hungry so..”
ueda took one too and quickly took his chopstick and grab a bite. It’s still warm. “so, that’s why you’re late” he said while munching.
“eh I want one too. Can i?” junno grinned happily. “no, it’s mine! Kame’s handmade” koki said, taking the last bento. “i- I told you I didn’t make it. I—“ kame tried to lie. “eeeh. What about me?” junno whinned. “ah I forgot” kame grinned.
“oeeee” everybody laughed at junno’s face. “iyaa, of course I remember. Kore” kame took one in the last plastic bag and gave it to junno. “ah arigatou” he smiled. “oaaaah, umai” koki said happily while chewing. “eh honto?” kame made it more clear that he’s the one who made all of them. “un. Umaaaa-I yo” nakamaru said. Ueda nodded, too busy eating. “oishii” junno said. “yokatta"
“ne, kame. Why didn’t you practice before you’re planning to lie to us?” koki said.
“wha—eh.. no—I” kame received a warm smile and chuckles from KAT-TUN. Just like the old times. Somehow he felt really happy inside. “thank you” ueda said, smiling. “you’re welcome. ah, I see. You guys are hungry” kame laughed. “yeah. And if you don’t mind why don’t you make bentos for us everyday” kame smacked maru’s head with a magazine. “baka, go find a girlfriend” kame grinned. “eeeeh so rude!” everybody laughed again.
Suddenly there’s a knock on the door. “kamenashi-san” it’s yamada’s voice. “a chotto matte” kame said to the members and hurriedly went to the entrance. “eh hi! Yama-chan. What’s up?” he asked. Yamada startled, to find his senior looked so happy. Really different, the last time they met. He used to be so flat after KAT-TUN lose a member.
“eh! Ano. Sorry for disturbing. I just want to say thank you for your advice. It worked.. and I think you’re right!” yamada bowed. “eh? Advice? About what?” kame grinned. “you don’t have to remember. But it helped me a lot! Can I ask you if I need any advice again? You’re the only adult I can ask” yamada asked politely.
“of course you can. But I’m just a kid you know. Just for your information” kame smiled at his junior. “hai! Thank you so much!” he bowed once again and left.
“ah.. sou” kame said to himself as he closed the door. “I have to thank that girl too” he tought. “but where? didn’t even know her” he sighed.
"fuyumi...." kame said in the middle of the lunch with KAT-TUN.
"what?" maru asked. "her name! i remember! fuyumi arimura! ohhhh! so smart so smart!" kame stood. up.
"hey sit down. what are you talking about?" koki asked looking at the hyper kame. "no! no! her name i remember! fuyumi-chan oa-ahahah smart kamenashi!" he did the peace sign.
"hey slow down. tell us" junno said.
"eh~ eh! but the cute little boy called him mama~ does it mean? ohh~ no. she's married? no! this is a no. i can't be interested in a married woman. well.. ma.. even though i love older woman.. eh? eh but no! what about his husband!? oh what should i do, what should i do?"
"what is with him?" junno asked ueda who's still eating.
"i don't know" he replied, then get back to his food again.
"he tried to look worried but he's actually so happy" maru said.
"kame..." koki shooked.to be contiuned...